On bed

Haha.. Was trying to blog about my krabi and Yunnan trip.. But both failed.. Trying to consolidates those amazing experiences into just words is just too difficult.. I am now on bed.. Trying to get my at least 6 hours of slp.. But I just can't slp!! I guess was cos of the 11 hrs of slp last night.. I had headache for continuous 3 days.. Not because of the panadol I taken in the noon.. I guess I probably still be having headache now... Recently I am abit slacking in finding jobs.. As part time job just keep flowing in till I just have enough time to slp.. My bro and my Sis.. Sibling abuse.. Lol.. My Sis just open a boutique at harbourfront and needs sales people there.. One of their staff just quit and seriously short handed.. And my bro. means my dads shop.. Lol.. More data entry! Hey!! I am a degree holder.. Let me do something decent! Lol.. Just kidding.. I love to help at my Sis shop.. Loads of fun.. I love interacting with customers.. They are awesome! And I love to work at my dads there as I can stick to my bro! Haha I have a cute bro.. And too.. There got lot of stuff to learn... But still.. I need to get a perm job no matter how much I like the state I am in now.. Jobjobjobjob.. I need you so I can go pluck my wisdom tooth and put braces!!

Gloomy weather gives me gloomy mood. Hall is all so Quiet by now. Everyone have shift out latest by Friday.. And I m still here.
Sky was dark before the lights came on. Hot weather which leads to a heavy pour has been frequent these days. but only today which makes me feels like this. as I start packing my stuff alone, throwing away things which left memories and hoping to leave the past years behind.
4 years isn't long but many things changed. The smiley Malay boy who hanged out alot at my block level 9 and use to greet whoever who walked passed with a big smile and a "HI!!".. Dun smile anymore.. Dun greet anymore.. Kids grew up with smile disppearing from their faces.. And a kid who use to call me up so often rather hang out with her friends now.. And my house nearby have planted lots of flowers.. Looks real nice.
Things around changed. People around changed. I changed.

it was scary how that feeling creeps up inside me..
that feeling hasnt surface since den..
but why today.. just now.. even in the midst of mj..

i nv knew it meant so much to me
everything that happened here
every single details
are hitting me so hard..

百行以孝为先
its weird when mun asked me why i bother to go home for that 3 hours. it was because i wan to. and i didnt want to miss the wonderful sunday breakfast. lol. it is always the damn enriching sunday.

i told rachel and kor that i will help them to do their wedding montage!. so exciting. rough sketches are on my mind. and i hope it turns out well. hoho

and there was another new line i learn that day:
三人同行， 必有我师焉。
my only qn was.. wad is 焉 means, it meant something like 啊！
lol. so anyway it means something like when there are 3 people working together, you will see 1 as your teacher, and one as a bad person. Although there are things to learn from your teacher but there are also things learnt from the other person. How not to be like him.
My dad also say before people around you are like mirrors, use them to look upon yourself.

山不转， 路转
路不转， 人转
人不转， 心转

it wasn't about that.
it was about the lost that cant recover.
the hurt caused and couldn't heal.
that images seems blur coz i dun wana remember.
but why do i still feel for it.
the images left here was too hurtful

ha. i usually not so kpo one. who drive what. but i didnt know why that white car turn my head. even when i dun recognise the car. and den it was BOOMZ.

my comp is up and running for sometime already since the power supply spoiled when this year starts. i hate to appear in simlim carrying the big bulky CPU alone. but i was there again. and here comes 2 angels. my sister for lending me her car when i was so helpless in bugis. carrying 2 big bags and need to travel to ubi to change power supply and back to simlim to install it again. it really doesnt help when you have 2 bags with you and woke up extremely moody in a unfamiliar enviornment
and other angel was the guy who fixed my comp. he didnt charge me! wasn't it awesome. save money and save time. =) although i was seen carrying the CPU alone again. but ohwell. its fixed. lotsa mixed feelings that day. lol. coz i drove around alone to 2 places i was unfamiliar with.
independant yet lonely. helpless yet decisive. ultra down to glad. tense and helpless. mwaha. if were to say the whole story of my simlim trip. guess cant finish. so shall just go back to my fyp.

miumiu hair lost and wound on her left ear are giving me some panic, i dunno if i should bring her to the vet.
problem 1: when she was young and was brought to vet for vacination, she fought.
problem 2: i scare she bite/ scratch the vet
problem 3: would she let me put medicine on her if she has any?
problem 4: it gonna cost me a bomb!

gonna observe her a few more days before i decide, i hope she will be fine. *pray*
these are some more photos of her


she love the blanket. she look as though she knew she was taking a photo.


miu miu curling up on my legs when i refuse to let her sleep on the chair.


another of her sleeping in my arms. lol


and her finally have the whole chair to herself.

miumiu loves this chair. aH.. she pushing me off the chair again.. =.= i usually only sit at the edge of the chair and miu miu will then take the rest. she is slping at my butt now.. lol. and when i dun let her have the chair, she will jump and sleep on my leg instead, or even my bed. rawrs, she dun go back her corner anymore. =(

this really did place a big full stop to my hall life. Thanks you.
these 2 days seems really fun.. maybe coz i had being hiding myself in my room ever since.. Things had not been good.. and it doesn't feel good in whatever case that may face anyone.
Darts didnt make it into semis.. really disappointed. Although engxiong they all kept saying that we make it really far.. and wasn't expecting that. but as for me, i felt we could be in the finals. but now is so far away.
i think we were the 3rd on our table. and we didnt make it into the top 2.
This year darts proposed a whole new me. I never felt so confident infront of a dart board before. nv had i felt that i could take my opponent so easily. i love the feeling of being in the arena, playing the games.
against Hall 9, i felt it was my mistake again for taking my opponent to lightly. things could be better, we should be in semis, if not for that mistake. I felt so bad. coz it totally reminded me of last year darts finals, when i was the deciding board and i lost. it happened again this year. it makes me so moody that i couldn't play the next game and i blamed myself for not being able to do it. I should have.. and here comes a "what if.."
i only picked up myself after we lost 2 games which already cost us our semis. i won the rest of the 4 games. but it didnt help. but we came far. really.



this was my favourite spot in hall8, where i sat on the stairs and metally prepare myself. i know i couldn't be too relax, or i will lose. too stress, and i wun perform. So i sit there and just look, look at the arena, tell myself that that's the board i am gonna play and the board i will win. it became a ritual after i picked up myself.
i got the satisfation i nv had before and enjoyed myself. Thanks everyone. it felt like i had a long dream. if only i dun have to wake up. and do my fyp.. lol.

I am now like a kid, had too much fun and need to pack up my feeling and go back to school again. Is time to stop dreaming.

ohwells, shall spend today emoing in my room. but only today. k?